Double RR

Love was a dream.
So was a Rolls Royce.
So was a Rolex.

I’d see someone wearing a Rolex,
or driving a Rolls,
and I’d tell myself—
work hard,
and one day,
your Double RR will come true.

I never envied anyone for having good things.
I wished them well.
I just wanted to earn mine.

And I did.
I reached the goal.
I got the Rolls Royce.
I got the Rolex.

But I was disappointed.
Because even with both in hand,
I still felt empty.

I said to myself—
now what?
Why do I keep searching
for something I can’t reach,
can’t touch?

My daughter Meredith said to me,
“You’re never happy
for all that you’ve accomplished.”

Those words rang true.
A thousand percent.

So, I ask myself:
What am I missing?
What haven’t I found?

I don’t know.
I truly don’t.

Right now,
I find myself listening to music.

It is the oxygen I breathe.
It keeps me going.
It keeps me on the right track
as I reflect
on what I’m still searching for.